I'm very depressed. my gf dumped me.?

i can handle bein dumped. the thing is she said that she never knew if she loved me more than just a friend. that tore a hole into me. i never have thought of suicide till she said that. i put alot of my time and heart into her. and for her to say that just destroyed me. the sad thing is we both knew she was lieing. but it still hurt that she said it. i asked her after we broke up for some closure to tell me that she loved me more than just a friend. she looked up into my eyes. then looked down and said it. idk wat to do. i bottle all my problems and emotions up. and she told me i needed to talk to someone about it. i never have and prolly never will again. i told her stuff i have never told anyone. and i broke down cryin one nite and i didnt know why. then all the emotions i shared with her the day before came in. the next day she broke up with me. thru a text. the sad thing is i know she was the one person created for me. i have dated people and i have never had the feelings i did for her with any of them. it just sucks. she said she was tired of always dating douchbags. and that i was the nicest guy she has ever met. but yet she is goin bak to the guy who kicked her out in the middle of a blizzard with no shoes or jacket on. idk. there is to many emotions in me rite now. and idk how to deal with it. how can something so rite turn up so wrong.